Trying to hold my composure

Right now I want to scream and shake the shit out of my ex husband. Normally when you divorce someone you are done with their bullshit, correct? Not in my case. Yes we have a child together, however he does not have much to do with her. He tries to make all his friends think he is some great father but I know and my baby girl is slowly learning too. He has not asked me for her ssn because he claims he got a life insurance policy for her that his uncle paid for all the children. If this is the biggest load of shit then I don’t know what is. I don’t know why he wants her ssn, but I am sure the hell not going to give it to him. He is up to something I can smell it. She has had the flu and been sick 3 times this year and he doesn’t even know about it. He doesn’t know that I am sending her to the school counselor once a week because this poor child is stressed out and confused about her father. He doesn’t know that I am seeking professional help for her because she is going to need it the rest of her life to deal with his lying ass. I am blogging so I do not explode on his ass. The last thing he told me on the phone was “ this is about Her Rachel, that’s it” this is when I had to hang up the phone or I was going to say “wtf do you know about her, do you know that she is getting her RPE put back in her mouth and being sedated, did you know she had a stomach bug today, or the flu a fucking week ago. Did you know that she cries about you all the time and that she wants to know why she got stuck with a liar as a father” but I didn’t I hung up and ended the call. I have to be the bigger person, however this does not mean I will not blog about it. I will also be posting a blog of a conversation we had about a month ago just to show what a fucking dumbass I have to deal with. God I know I have cursed in this blog but I am begging you to please remove this man from my life and my daughter’s life. Without him we will be better.