Saturday, April 21, 2012

Defeated....


Why is it that every time a good thing comes along it never seems to be at a right time?
How does one honestly know when a good time is? How does one stop and make the decision if this is a sign or a slight infatuation?
What make any good thing come at a bad time? If it’s a good thing why is it a bad time? How does one differentiate?
It feels like not many good things happen in my life but when something good does come along it never seems to work out for me. Whether its life in general or love…..
Why does it have to be so hard? I know nothing of importance is easy but damn, why now? Because I’m finally happy with me? I finally know who I am . . . why why now? Is all I have to ask. . .
Desperately seeking an answer to something I’m sure will not favor me in the end but I need to know. Am I crazy? Is this stupid? Or is this real?
It feels real, unlike anything I’ve ever felt before. It somehow is the best and the worse feeling at the same and I’m lost. . .
I feel like I’m wandering around and don’t know where to go. Actually I know where I want to go but can’t. Certain factors don’t allow me to go where my heart desires. . . I’m honestly not sure how much longer I can hold on…
An independent woman that’s heart is in all the right and wrong places at the same time…
Defeated….

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