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Would you believe me if I told you that I have no soul? Would you still like me if you knew how much I didn’t care? Can you handle the fact that I may never love again and have no intention of ever loving you? Is it awful that I don’t want to cuddle and I don’t want to be loved on? Is it unbearable that I do not want you in my bed at night? Is it unfair to someone that I like sleeping alone, that I like doing most things alone? Is it awful of me to take advantage of a nice guy and not feel bad about it when I have nothing to offer in return? Heartless? Hopeless? Absolutely happy with my confinement, is all that I am.

So last night I was approached online through message by a 6'11 man. His profile picture was him standing in a mirror with a stand up tanning bed in the background at a local gym I go to with his shirt off. His message to me was Do I like photography? My first thought was, what a fucking meathead. Like seriously you big ass bald headed ape, why don't you have some pictures on here with some clothes on, Can you even find any to fit your tall ass? Granted this man was not fat, very in shape, but the fact that his message to me was about photography was enough to just make me roll my eyes and just laugh since previously I had blogged about men and photography. So I played along and I'm not sure if he picked up the cynicism in the message back but I said "Why do you want to take my picture." Well of course the big dumb ape comes back with Yes; of course, I'm just looking for people who are also interested in photography. I said nothing back, ten minutes later I get another message that said " Do you have any tall photographer friends" this is when I about flipped my shit, like dude are you fucking serious, like you can't seriously believe this shit is working in your favor. I already hope that if I ever see him at the gym I have the opportunity to shake this shit out of him and tell him to pull it together man. I replied back, "yes my closest male friend is a photographer for Big Machine Records." Needless to say I have not heard back from the meathead and I am not at all disappointed in this. Just because you snap a few pictures of girls or whatever does not make you a fucking photographer you fucking idiots. I am finding more and more everyday men that are shirtless in all pictures or a guitar as a prop and every male's profession is musician or photographer, or both. Like fuck me silly, two things I constantly run from put together. I'd rather have someone beat me in my head. Granted most of these men don't know how to be a profession photographer or know how to play a complete song on the guitar but good try guys and just an FYI this isn't what women are really into these days. Bankers, writers, lawyers, doctors, REAL artists, not someone who can hold a camera and say cheese or string a little note on a guitar. Til the next stupid message I receive. . .

Secretly stepping online.....

Why do men think the picture in the mirror with your shirt off is appealing?
If the only pictures you have to post for people to view are you taking them, this is also on the unappealing factor.
I don’t necessarily want to see you with a shirt off; no matter how good you may think your body looks or how good it does look. Might I add that just because you think you look good with your shirt off, 8 out of 10 times men are wrong. It is like they have permanent beer goggles on staring at themselves in the bathroom.
Why does every man have a guitar and want to be a musician or a photographer?
Almost all men play the guitar and there are two types of men I will never trust and that is a musician and a photographer. Call me crazy or say I have some insecurity issues but I can tell you that these two types of men are normally always cheaters or never completely faithful, never going to be emotionally available or just straight up Fucking Weirdos! The musician wants to play his song for you, the song that was written just for you. Guess what ladies, I’m sure that song wasn’t for you and will be the same song for the next. Photographers always want to take a picture of you, why? Can’t you see I have perfectly fine pictures already? I’m not a model or trying to be and your cheesy line will never win this chick over. I don’t want you to take my picture because I won’t be the first and definitely not the last.
Why do men read a profile and always find a way to say we have so many things in common, I’m like well no shit. Sherlock. My interests are most every NORMAL person’s interest, don’t feel SPECIAL you fucking idiot.
Some may ask where this is coming from and it is coming from some place I never thought I would step foot in but an online dating forum. I have to say that I never took it serious but removed myself from Facebook so me being the social networking whore that I am I was bored and created a profile. I do not think you can find love online, however once online I don’t know whether to laugh or feel sorry for so many people out there looking for love. Yes finding it is hard, but good things come to those that wait, right? I’ll probably be the only 60 year old woman still blogging about how she is waiting for Mr. Right to come scoop her up, but fuck it. As online, I have to say there are tons out there trying sooo hard to find someone to share their life with. So desperate they dispose of everything immediately and put their whole heart into their profiles. Then you have the guys out there looking to cheat, or just for sex. However, I have read soo many profiles that I think there are a lot out there that are genuine guys that are desperately lonely. Am I saying that I am not desperately lonely at times? Hell to the No. I’ll be the first to admit that Loneliness sneaks up on me from time to time and I just have to pull it together and not let it consume me. However I am also the type of person that doesn’t really know if a Long Term Relationship will ever be something I am good at or something that I want. If it is not my way, on my terms, or exactly how I want it I ignore it and normally wind up loosing something that would have been great for me, if I wouldn’t have been so damn selfish. Yet again I don’t see anything wrong with this. I think I should be able to pick when and why I want to be with someone without hurting their feelings, buuuuut I don’t like this done to me, so double standard. Maybe and only MAYBE if I do meet that someone my views on relationships will change. Right now I’m just blown away by all the sad lonely people looking for love online. I don’t really know where else you are suppose to look for love if you don’t go to church, or if you don’t go out socially. I agree it’s hard to meet people. I have a handful of people that I’ve been hanging with for 10 years now and the same men (friends) have been in my life, so I get that part. I am just not sure if online is where it’s at. Yes I know, some will say they found love online and couldn’t be happier, but I still don’t get it. Just doesn’t seem right. However I must say this online stuff has made me laugh my ass off numerous times at the shit men will say to try and get your attention. And that I was right, that there is a fuck load of freaks in this world.
That’s it for now….