Sometimes loneliness hurts more, I never seem to understand why it consumes me so much but as months Go by I truly miss the affection of someone , the laughter shared between two people. It's been over a year if not longer since companionship has came my way. The past few weeks it has really brought me down. It hurts , it sucks, and I'm tired of feeling like I'm some lost cause that has lost her chance at happiness. All my friends are married or too damn young for me to be hanging out with. Sometimes I wonder if it's the companionship I miss or just the feeling of knowing that someone wants me, someone that desires me, someone who thinks I'm awesome just for being me. Maybe I'm just not dateable . I don't know where else to look- when not looking infer nothing yet when searching I still come up empty handed . Honestly I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of not having someone special to share me with