Missing

I miss you after I just left you. I'm lonely when you are not near . I'm sad that I can't be with you and miserable the way this situation is . Yet I can't let you go. I need you too much. You are all I've ever wanted and more . I just wish you could see I might be the best for you too . You make me want more. You make me want love, life a family and so much more. You have turned this ice queen into a hopeless romantic

Love

I'm in love with you... I didn't want it to be true but I am. I love you unlike anyone I've ever loved before. I've tried to deny it. But when I'm apart from you I feel it more. Distance makes the heart grow fonder- if that's the case. My heart is about to explode for the first time ever

Want and need

I hate this.
I can't have you. Yet I want no one else .
I haven't done anything all weekend because I wanted to be with you.
I wanted to show
You i am true About me and you. You are not only what I want but what I need. What we need. I hope you see soon how much you need me too as much as I need you

OH Jesus!

Are my thighs fat?!

Today my daughter came home and asked me if I thought her thighs were fat- I looked at her a little dumbfounded- I almost thought she was mocking me. When I asked her why in the world she said that she said someone in school was making fun of her legs! Anyone that has seen her knows she doesn't have an inch of fat on her . It makes me think- is she so self conscious of her legs because she sees and hears me criticize myself so much or are children honestly that damn mean at 9 they are already being critiqued on their looks. This worries me as a mother as I'm sure it would most mothers. I hope my daughter takes my hard work in the gym as something to be proud of but not of something that holds a standard too high for anyone this young.
I am certainly concerned that my 9 year old already has a complex with her body when she is not even of age for her body to even begin the process of developing . As a woman of almost 30 I've struggled with the way I've looked for almost 15 years now- I really don't want my daughter to start obsessing about it now .